Trying too hard to concieve

After several months of myself not taking contraception and getting my head into the idea that this was going to be a real thing and we were going to start trying to make our own family my fella was now also ready to start trying but it is a very, very scary thought.

For so many people starting a family is a natural easy mutual step in any relationship. Whereas after being together for nearly 9 years building a house and careers together it has been a huge decision to even contemplate trying to take the next step and it's scary!

We know when we should be fertile and should be doing the do but how on earth do you just crack on and do something as serious as change the rest of your lives and start the next chapter.

Let's just say, our first attempt did not go well! It was lovely and loving and romantic but it didn't end in the climax that we required to have our first shot at getting the job done.
I think we have spent so many months thinking about the possibilities and the pros and the cons and thought so much about our decision that the actual event  lost it's spark.

Here's to next month trying again to make our own little Panda Cub. I think we might need a lot more practise and a lot less pressure!

It's a funny one really, I have spent the last 16 years of my life trying not to get pregnant and just having sex as a pleasure but now suddenly sex is completely and utterly different and now we have a job to do it makes everything different.

I think we need to re-address our way of thinking and get back to young carefree loving sex together if we want this to work.